What frustrates you is not that you can't get what you want. It's the knowledge that you have to ask the right questions to get the answers you need, you have to want the right things to get what you need. But you always seem to ask the wrong questions. And you always want the wrong things. And you struggle to let go of the things you want because it will never be. And you try to want what's good for you. You try really hard. And patience is key. So is perseverance. You fall, you stand, you walk, you fall. And then one day you decide you don't want to stand up anymore. You know you'll reach where you're supposed to be if you continue but you're just so defeated. The knowledge is there. You know the right thing to do but sometimes you let fears fill you up until your body weighs you down. This is what frustrates you most. Knowing what to do versus desiring something else.